Hey Ya'll!! So times haven't been the happiest for me lately but I have made it by with my music. Music has always been and will probably always be my drug, recovery, sedative, etc. My favorite artist right now is Banks. My favorite songs from her are Beggin for Thread, Drowning, Change, You Should Know Where I'm Coming From, Waiting Game, and Brain. I also have found a liking for Kelly Clarkson's "You Can't Win", "Honestly", "The War is Over", and "Don't Be a Girl About it". There isn't really anything to say other than, no matter how hard it gets don't turn to the bad stuff. You know what I'm talking about. The drugs, the alcohol, the cigarettes. Trust me I've thought about it, thought about it a lot, but the thing is, damaging your body will not heal your heart or brain. That's why I turn to music. Listening to artists pour their hearts into every word that spills out of their mouths is inspiring. Knowing that there is someone out there that knows exactly how you feel is reassuring. When artists sing about exactly how you are feeling, down to the note, it is like a blanket when you are stuck in ice. It is one step closer to felling better. There are certain songs that hearing them, will bring me to tears. It doesn't matter how happy I am. Like "Travelin' On" by Norah Jones
. To anyone else, this is just another song. But to me it is everything. That was the song right before finale in the dance concert I participated in. It was a gorgeous duet and I remember staring at one of the girls when she was in her ending pose. I was in the wings ready for the next dance, and I will never forget the look on her face. That was the last year she would be doing dance and in that last pose I remember seeing two tears fall down her face. That's the feeling of what it is like to be in a family where you are supported one and always. When you leave, it hurts. Whenever I hear that song I cry, it is an automatic trigger. That's what music is. It's a flood of memories and emotions that no one can control. So just remember that music is the best drug, the best toxin, the best breath you will ever take.
Bi Ya'll!!
