Life is complicated

Hey Ya'll! So First, I just want to say the world is really messed up. One of the reasons is because I had to get an account off of this website for school and it had an option for you age from 1900 to 2050. How could you be born in 2050 and be making an account, I mean what the heck is wrong with these people? Anyway, I haven't blogged in a long time because 1. Nothing too interesting has happened 2. I have been second guessing a lot of the things I have done. It might seem like a small thing but you only know they pain and uncomfortable feeling until you start realizing you have done everything wrong. I have made the wrong friends, who downsize me and belittle me with words that cut deep. I have changed as a person,and that might seem like a great thing for people that are reading this, but the pain comes from the knowing. The knowing that I changed because a school changed me. A private all-girls school changed me and it hurts to know that I wasn't strong enough to change by myself. I know the kind of people I feel comfortable around and would make great friends, and There aren't any of those people at my school. I have been thinking a lot and nothing hit me harder till I was listening to a sad song and realized it explained my whole situation. My "friends" like the idea of a friend group. there are many friend groups in the grade, but I got pulled into one, I would love to be out of. There is nothing more I hate in the world, nothing, than to be limited. Having a friend group makes me feel limited. I am always around them and I need variety. I need space and they can't give me that. I don't like hanging out with the same people every single day, every break in the day. But I am stuck with them, so oh well. Your lesson for today is to find your people and never settle with them till you are absolutely sure. Find who you are.

Bi Ya'll!!