Words

Hey Ya'll!! There isn't anything I have in particular to talk about, but I felt the need to write. I have been feeling rushes to write lately. I haven't free written in a long time and I miss it. And now that I have time to write, I am stuck. I miss the days where I would write stories with my friends and we would plot it out so detailed and get so excited. Now everyone has lost interest and I'm alone on yet another thing. To be honest, I am a people person. Not in my city that much, but if I go anywhere else I want to be around people. I am honestly not independent like I wish I was. I get advice from other people on everything, down to where I should put my books in my locker. I am a people person and I can't write alone. That's the hard thing because I express myself through writing and others don't understand what I go through or what it was like during that party I write about. So I am stuck and find myself not wanting to go on the internet, or play games, or talk to people, I just want to write, yet I can't. So this is the only way I can write, even if it isn't the way I prefer. I write like I talk. I can imagine myself now ranting all of this to one of my friends. Most people don't know what it feels like to have that fresh relief of typing long sentences and paragraphs and not be writing for an essay. For your fingers to have a mind of their own and you don't even think of how you never took typing lessons, yet you still know where every key is on the keyboard. I miss the days where I would get to typing so fast, that I would start with a sentence and in 30 min. I would have a story done. There's so many things I miss. I miss my friends, yet they're right beside me, I miss the days where we would have 70 minutes in English to write anything and everything and listen to music while we laughed of the stories me and my friends would come up with. English is my favorite subject, no matter what we are doing. Even during the Romeo and Juliet unit, I loved it (even if they were idiots). Even during the 4 years of grammar, I found myself liking it because I was surrounded with words. My favorite things to do are listen to music, paint/draw, and write. I like music because it has words. I mainly only like painting/drawing if I am talking to someone, and I love writing because it is words, words, words. I would be lost without words. That's the main reason I include quotes at the end of my entries. I love words. I could talk all day, read all day, write all day, listen to people talk all day. And now I look back on what i've written and I just thought I wrote a few sentences, yet I wrote paragraphs. Anyway, well now you know what happens when I am deprived of writing, it comes out here.

Bi Ya'll

Exams

Hey Ya'll!! So I haven't had much happen in the past few weeks. Well actually that is a complete lie. I have been struggling and feeling like I want to cry every night for no reason, but I feel like things are looking up. I have exams coming up, tomorrow actually, and I am not as freaked out as I thought I would be. I should be studying for English (my first exam) but the thing is: I don't care about Romeo and Juliet. They were idiots and got married after knowing each other for what? 3 days? Then somehow knew they were soul-mates and killed themselves because they couldnt live without each other. WHAT EVEN IS LIFE??? I know you are probably like, "Dang this girl is depressing and doesn't believe in true love" But how could I when have never been in love, never even have had a serious crush. My life is sad and I still think Romeo and Juliet were stupid, so there. The next exam is Science. Ohhhhhhhhhhh Science. What a stupid thing. I get how Science is very important and explains all of the things in life but really? When am I ever going to need to know how an atom becomes positively or negatively charged? Like am I going to be sitting at home, eating dinner or something and think, "Oh wow I wonder if these rice atoms are positively or negatively charged?" NOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Oh and History. History History History. When am I EVER going to need to know who the leader of a civilization in India from 6,000 years ago was? Oh wait, I won't! SOOOOOOOOOOOOO done with school. But after that is the holidays!!!!! My FAVORITE time of the year. Everything is just happy. I could only dream of having it snow a lot or even just snow. It NEVER snows in Nashville. If anything, we get ice. So for everyone in Colorado and those other states who complains about snow (fluffy, inviting, happy, lush, snow), think of us in Nashville with our black ice, bruised butts, and sprained wrists from the stupid tricks of winter. Literally, if you ever watch the weather for our area, there is snow all around us, but never actually here. You see this intense wall of icy weather on the radar coming straight for us and NOPE it dissipates once it gets to us. Just turns to rain. Frickin freezing rain. Pray for us please. After Christmas though, I am going with my family on a cruise around Mexico and Central America. I am so excited. Especially since I just went shopping for Summer clothes and got so much stuff. I still don't have winter clothes though...  Anyway, I hope everyone is as happy as I am right now and has a great week!!!

Bi Ya'll!!